When you feel there is no where out...

Why hello my little pumpkins. Hahaha okay maybe that is an exaggerating way of me saying hello,it's me.
It's been a rough week I could honestly say. If you don't know I had just started my degree classes almost 2 months ago and 2 days ago was the beginning of our Mid Semester 1 examination. My first paper was a subject named Cell Biology
Well I learnt my lesson during my foundation year not to compiled and study for 3 learning units in one night that is for sure. My goal was to finish reading most of the study material my lecturers had gave us students, and sure enough I had managed to reach that goal.
But the sad, dissapointing and frustated fact was even though I read most (90%) of the study material, when I was answering the exam I felt like everything was just a waste. There were so many moments I blank out and got confused over the exam questions, not to mention having thoughts like "Wait,was this even in the study material?" At that point I just felt like my hopes to get better grades than my foundation year was slowly slipping away and I honestly felt like crying. That feeling where you know you had worked your ass off for this shit but none of your plans somehow manage to fall thru overwhelms me and I started having negative thoughts on if I can manage to somehow make it thru my degree life in the next 3 years. Before starting my degree studies I was positive I will be able to go through this, but honestly now I feel so scared of what the future might holds and the time that paved my ways thru the next 3 years of my degree life.
Honestly speaking I don't wanna fell like this. Just because of a paper my positive side is slowly consumed by me overthinking stuffs out. Somehow and I know I need to find a medium to help get through this rough week and negative thoughts. If so many people had managed to get thru university I know I can too. In God I put my trust. Sure the road to reach that goal maybe hard at some turn but what is life without its ups and downs. Like the they say Life is a climb.
But somehow this manage to taught me that never underestimate objective questions. And learn to divide time properly for each subject not to mention procrastinating is one the biggest enemy for a university student.